Alright ladies, I'm going to play along with your game, let me know if I'm doing it right...
For me, failure is when I let people, or myself, down. I want to be a woman of action, not talk: talk is cheap. When I say I am something, or that I am going to do something, be something, I want it to mean something. Words can be beautiful and persuasive, and can probably get you want you want for a while, but without meaning, they are just sounds.
I feel like I struggle with this sometimes; I guess we all do. Its easy to forget who we are unless we make an effort to always remember. Its easy to be lazy and impatient. God knows I'm no scientist, I can hardly work a remote control, but isn't there a rule of physics that says for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction? Every word should have an equal and opposite action. It is a conscious choice that we have to make before we do everything. Is this the right thing to do, how will this effect so and so, is this who I want to be?
Maybe thats the key, we can be whoever we want to be (even a scientist!) With every choice we make, we are defining who we are. By acting on our words, choosing the right words to begin with, and by being true to not only who we are, but who we want to be, we can give our words, our selves, meaning. We define ourselves. Its pretty cool if you think about it. Its like there is a blank entry in the dictionary by our name and we get to write whatever we want! Now thats exciting. The possibilites are endless. If you don't like what you are now, change it. Want to be a runner: go for a run. Wanna be a scientist: buy a bunsen burner. Wanna Fanta, don't ya wanna, wanna Fanta. I digress.
When I don't do this, and it happens more often that I like, I feel like I have failed: failed to grow, failed to define myself on my terms. I let myself down, I let the people around me down because I haven't been the best that I can be for me or for them. Maybe its me, but I want the people who count on me to be able to count on me, no matter what. I don't want them to have to think twice. I am making a promise to myself right now to be the person that I want to be, to stretch my limits, to give my words meaning, to be Malinda.
